She Is Lost

She is lost
Her dignity is a thing of the past
Her innocence is no longer there
Her self-confidence is in questioned 
Her mental state of mind is confused 
She doesn't belong to her anymore
She portrays confidence, but in reality 
She lives scared and afraid
She could be the queen that she is, but...
She chooses to be a follower, her ignorance saturates her
She's not near at being herself
She is lost
She closes her eyes and think of her existence 
She knows she's not herself, but fakes that a change is coming, but...
She knows it's just a show
She hurts everyday, thinking of the pain of being alone
She finds a man to clear away all her insecurities 
She's happy for the moment 
She then pushes him away...out of fear that she'll lose him
She makes sure he doesn't love her...
She loses him and tells everyone it's him
She then becomes vindictive
Her hurt of her past scars are containing her happiness 
She cries...every night, wondering what needs to be done
She's a female by DNA but being a lady never crosses her mind
She is often seen standing outside herself looking at herself
She doesn't recognize herself....
She is lost