"She Stands Alone"

She found herself in darkness. The cold walls shielded her from the outside world. She locked herself in and was seperatied from the ones who love her. She wanted to cut her skin until she bled out. She wanted to slam her head against the wall so it would break. Her tears were her solitary relief of stress. It would be better if she just left and never came back. The stress would go away and everyone would be much happier. My head hurts so badly. The pain is so severe and unbearable. Sometimes I spend endless hours wondering what heaven is like. Wondering if I would go there even if I end my own life. To separate myself from the people I love so much. It seems almost like a cruel deed within itself. But my question is, wouldn't it help myself?