Shonnie(ode to mother)

Sitting here wondering how my life would be,
easier if my mommy was near,
not in a plastic box that doubles as a urn,
remnants of a heart burned,
still the world turns as new knowledge is learned,
churning out pain never the relief,
disbelief of another’s views never equality,
shonnie taught me to respect other’s voicing,
ready to give new light to dark matter
issues that can’t be wiped away with tissues,
blood and sweat flowing out of me,
thoughts rage as I dream about old pages,
reminisce memories of simplicity,
never had the thought of growing up parentless,
all smiles, no philosophy or future processed,
fun having, candy eating, truth telling,
honor roll studying,
now screwing up on a roll, gown and cap disappearing,
lying, cheating and stealing,
slowly dying as time counts down,
wasting  my high IQ, too lazy to get my Q answered,
severed the ties between socialize,
I rather rap, and high-rise,
a sacrifice at the price of knowing true virtue of the world,
high school represent it, I live it,
wish shonnie was here she’ll guide my pilgrimage.