Sick

I just want to be happy I just want to be able to say I have been there and done that I just want to be able to stay I just want to be a part of something greater than anyone thought I could be I just want to be doing something I love to do I’m not the same girl I was a couple years ago Heartache on so many different levels lead me to where I am today I am certainly not going down without a fight Cause I’ve been there and done that, it just ended in heartache I don’t want to let anyone down But if you piss me off, that’s the end you don’t matter to me anymore Don’t try calling my name, I won’t answer. You took your way out, and now you realize what you’re missing out on I am done pretending that we can still be friends I am through saying I am sorry for shit I never did I am sick of playing this cruel and unusual game Let me out of this rollercoaster ride I have been on for several years now I am so tired of pretending that I haven’t changed and that you would pick me up when I fall down Has anyone recovered from being stabbed in the back? Has anyone seen her, the girl I left behind? Has anyone realized just how much colder I am? Has anyone seen the smile I used to give to anyone? The answer is no, you must deserve my friendship and my trust I am pretty easy going until I snap…. And sorry to say I snap quite a lot now You pushed me past my limits; I thought I could let it go But obviously you still think you can push me around I am done pretending that we can still be friends I am through saying I am sorry for shit I never did I am sick of playing this cruel and unusual game Let me out of this rollercoaster ride I have been on for several years now I am so tired of pretending that I haven’t changed and that you would pick me up when I fall down I am so not sorry to say, take your mementos, Take your gifts, hell take back anything that is yours from me I don’t want anything to do with you anymore Delete your number, Delete your memories If only I couldn’t remember all the good times, because I wanna get back to that time If only I could block all those good memories out, and just remember The 27 different times you screwed me over I Am done pretending, I am so sick of it all All of your games and insecurities Here is the end of a friendship A beginning for me to realize who my friends really are… And you never were one.