It is quiet

So quiet

I can hear nothing

Silence sits around me, gently descending upon my shoulders

a weight to heavy to bear

I sit here quietly 

I say nothing, because there is nothing to be said

I hear nothing, because there is nothing to hear

All that needed to be said was said long ago

So there is nothing to say

All that needed to be heard has been heard

So I listen no more

So it is quiet

Sometimes so quiet that I feel as if I am choking

Choking on the silence

I almsot laugh at myself at the mere notion

How can one choke on words that are not being said? 

Words that have never even thought of being said?

I've been silent for some time now

Quiet

Doing as I was told to do long ago

Do not be fooled, 

It is not that what I have to say is not important 

Indeed, it is

but why should I speak. 

if I will never be listened to again? 

Why should I simply repeat words, 

that have been whispered in your ear like a gentle serenade, 

and yelled loudly in your face

I do not hold hope that you will hear me when I speak

Now, I hope you will hear my silence

You told me to stop talking

When you stopped listening

So I will stop talking

in hopes that maybe you will hear my words

 

It is quiet

to quiet to bear

I'm dying in this silence, 

but it cannot be helped

I will be silent for that is my plight

To remain the silent one

In the dead of the night

Alone

Quiet

Silent

Still

Choking

but still alive

still alive