Silent Thoughts

Come inside me and know how it feels

To not know yourself

It doesn’t feel real

Step inside the bottomless, black, abyss

That are my shoes

I don’t ever know where I am going

but something still pushes me to move

Feel my skin it’s cold to the touch

Like something died inside me years ago

Did I leave something behind that I was supposed to bring with me

I don’t remember muchBecause the past always holds me down and makes me feel weak

So I learn from my mistakes and continue on with my week

But maybe there’s more than picking up the lesson

Acting like it never happened

after praying silent confessions

But remembering just enough not to do it again..

Moving forward in my life..

Trying to forget the pain..

But thats the thing…I DON’T KNOW

Do I hold on to the past or do I just let it go?

Holding on brings tears and pain..

Weakness?

Letting go brings strength, endurance,Numbness..

To any old feelings that remind me of then…

Maybe there’s a happy place in the middle

To appreciate a new joyous future

A place where horrors won’t haunt me from way back when..