Sink Yourself in Despair

See I am not declaring myself to you, I am honoring myself. I am just standing close enough, so after you can bring me a gold medal. I won’t be long, just listen... 1st - I wanted to learn but it didn’t matter it’s what my parents saw 2nd - I was loved by the world - until they saw me as the bad guy 3rd - I washed away the ashes and a fresh beginning arose 4th - Why I don’t remember I want to skip straight to 5th 5th - That’s where the tables turned and you did not love me anymore Where my heart shriveled up and a raisin looked more composed. I just did not do anything because I didn’t honor myself, I honored you. I pranced around the idea, laughed at the barriers and tried to fight Tear after tear, I washed it away because I was not shedding blood After four eyes gained a cooler pair a glasses, she walked out the door. The queen of seduction got a decent wardrobe, she was not a problem anymore. Lesbian, don’t worry about her she has a boyfriend. I, I was never that because I stopped honoring you and started honoring myself. Oh, I forgot the clean cut finish to her heart. Last, I never wished for you to sink into your own despair.