As you've noticed, Ive pulled myself back

Held my breath 'til my world had turned black

And I can't pretend

That you've nothing to do with it

 

And before I fall into this mess,

There's just something to get off my chest

Oh please, wont you hear

All the words I've held in all these years?

 

I've been thinking about you

And I've suffered without you

I don't know why,

But you've moved yourself out of my life

 

So why are you still

Close to my heart,

When it's broken?

When I can't seem to see through the tears?

Because I'm still waiting

For the sister I've lost all these years

 

And I have all these questions to ask

Like how are you? And will you be back?

Well I'm not gunna lie

But I'd die to see you one last time.

 

I've been thinking of when we were young

There were fall-outs but I still had fun,

Standing in your shadow

Made me realize Im scared of the sun

 

And I know that I'm not the same girl

I've grown up with a twisted view of the world

But I digress

I just hope you don't think of me less

 

Cuz I'm lonely without you

And have no one to talk to

I don't know why

But you've moved so far out of my life

 

So why are you still

Close to my heart,

When it's broken?

When I can't seem to see through the tears?

Because I'm still waiting

for the sister I've lost all these years

 

And I have all these questions to ask

Like how are you? And will you be back?

Well I'm not gunna lie

But I'd die to see you one last time

 

I refuse to let you see me right now

If you did you would figure me out;

The way I act like I don't care Is just because I am too scared

Of losing another piece of my life.

 

But know that you're still

Close to my heart

Though it's broken,

Though not all of the pieces are there,

I am always waiting

When the day comes where we can both share

All the memories, all the heartaches, all the moments where you weren't here,

I am always waiting For the sister I've lost all these years.