Sisters

Shes my best friend.

shes the only one that really understands me.

but after she left she hasnt been the same.

she doesnt talk as much.

when she does she crys.

all she wants to do is be with her fiance and her family and wants nothing to do with me.

i know she loves me and wants to see me but why does she act this way?

She thinks im being distant.

She thinks im mad at her.

She thinks i hate her fiance.

Thats not true. Not fully anyway.

I am being distant.

I am mad.

I hate her fiance.

Im distant because take your pick; Aniexty, depression,stress,angry,lonlyness, selfloathing,scared.

Im mad because you cant see what everyone else sees.

Im mad because you want the truth but you cant handle the truth.

Im mad because you think im resentful of your life.

That is one thing that i am not. Resentful.

I am happy for you. I am happy that you found someone that has made you smiles like i have never seen you smile before.

Im happy that you have someone in your life that puts you first and makes you a priority in their life.

Im happy that you are happy.

But your not happy.

If you were happy i wouldnt be writing this.

If you were happy then we wouldnt have this akwardness between us.

I love you. No matter what you say or do to me i can never hate you because you are my sister. I know you will always be here for me.

It makes me sad that you think im not here for you.