Slam Poem 7

Slam Poem 7

I don't know where to start I have a lot to say. I guess I can say I'm sorry it didn't work and maybe if I wasn't stupid and a freshmen I would have stayed and we would have worked and we would be together right now so strong so happy and I'd never have cried all the times I cried and maybe if I wasn't so scared to feel this way again I would have realized a long time ago that I wanted you back but here I am and I'm not sure what I'm asking but I need you to know and I need to know where you stand I know it's been years but I got lost and I want you to find me again it was beautiful when you loved me and I was so shy and fragile back then so I couldn't say how I felt but I should have and I regret that god knows I'd take it back and take you back I tried to hate you but I spend days lost in thought about you- oh
You've moved on
That's cool I'm cool I was gonna get there and say that so yeah you're good we're good its funny you thought I was going to say I loved you still
No I was just gonna say
But then I moved on and I let you go and I've been good and I'm glad you've been good and I'm glad we had the time when we did. Experienced what we did
Later I'll tell my friends what I'm telling him and they'll say I know you didn't mean that and I'll tell them
I know
I wanted to say
But then I realized I'll never move on even though I let you go and I've been terrible trying to function without you but I'm glad you've been good
I'll visit you in my dreams because that's the place you'll never leave and your memories will hold so dear to me and maybe one day I'll realize we all have a million soul mates and you can redirect to another or get caught in feelings for one but I'll figure it out if you did it I can do it because I want to be strong like you and I'm sorry again that I let you go maybe if I wasn't a freshmen and I wasn't dumb we would still be here together strong as ever but dreams are dreams and that's how they will always be.
I told my friends how I'm feeling. How lost I feel without you and..
They're telling me that I don't love you anymore. That I'm just
Confused
And need closure
I didn't know not to love someone felt like your heart being ripped from your chest when you thought about them with someone else because you weren't with, I didn't know not to love someone meant you thought about them every day for hours and the idea of them could distract you from everything else and I didn't know not to love someone meant that you'd wonder what it could be like right now and I just need a looking glass for the future because I second guess every second of this present and I know I can't move on from you because I can't talk to anyone without looking for you and maybe the looking glass could tell me if you were supposed to be the one for me and maybe if you are you'll still feel this way for me and maybe we can not love each other together and if this isn't love I can't wait to love each other together. Again.
I miss you and I'm sorry
I'm sorry I didn't tell you how I felt I want to turn back the clocks and fix it not run away
Would I be crazy if I said I made a mistake but you've moved on and I'm sitting here like I've always been thinking about you and what could have been and I'm waiting on the message that's never going to come
But I'll keep waiting because maybe one day you won't love me too

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