Sleeping in the Living Room

Sleeping in the living room

Through the cushions seep my anger

Dreadful thoughts spill from my eyes

Onto the leather of my bed

Fault lays on feather pillows

Under blankets, warm and safe

Light from outside, through the windows

Keep me insane and wide awake

She’s the one who’s done this

She’s to charge with this blame

Bile of self-pity rises

Boiling

Hissing

Screaming One Name

Mother, you’ve forsaken me

Leaving me out, alone and cold

I’m supposed to be your baby

Instead, only my own hand I have to hold

Dreams of happy families flutter

Across the blinds and through the glass

Flying away

and away

and away

Until my eyes snap anew and the night has passed

Reality rises with the sun

Wake up! Open those tearstained pools

No more searching for those silly dreams

They’re too far away as of today

In the future, these eyes will dry

Once I leave this world behind

I’ll fly and then, mom, I’ll show you

Just what dreaming on a couch can do

Once I’m gone, I’ll be the best

So goodbye mom, I’m better than you

Goodbye dreams of something greater

Goodbye sleeping in the living room