Slow Dancing

My mind is a labyrinth, and I’ve remained lost for ages

 A monstrous and imperial  maze filled with panic, anxiety, and anger

You found me naked on my floor

Covered in tears, blood, and whiskey 

Beaten by the world

Battered from the abuse

Afraid to even ask for help, no matter how much I need it.

How is it that you were able to guide me out from

 The depths of my unconsciousness when no one else could?

Then one after the other, parts of my world were put together to become Whole again.

I believe I think I’ve found the cure

To guide me from this monstrous labyrinth

It’s you:

Your voice, soft and tranquil 

While I’m sobbing, panicking in the abyss of my imagination

Sitting with my back to the corner of two walls,

You are telling me everything will be okay, 

Trying to bring me back into reality,

Eager to get me to understand nothing 

Will come with those soft words of worry. 

Your eyes, a beautiful dark brown I’ve never seen before

That can loosen the grips my anxiety has on me, 

You tell me to keep my eyes on you.

Trying to make something click in my mind that we 

Are the only ones in the world,

And when I look deep into your being

 I know that I’m safe from myself.

Your touch, firm, but caring that stops

 The anger spreading from my fingertips, trying to cause more damage

Your hands holding my wrists, talking to me with sadness in your eyes, 

 You seem so sad that I would even consider hurting myself,

But I will always choose to damage myself over ever hurting you 

That’s how I remember our first night together.

Completely intoxicated, but I knew when you hugged me I was safe

I guess that’s how it started. 

However, no one told me that you were an immaculate old soul. 

That I should keep my heart under lock and key

I wasn’t supposed to fall so hard. 

But I realized that through everything that has happened so far,

Even the smallest inconvenience 

You haven’t left my side.

You’ve shown me the different colors of your life,

 The secrets that you’ve kept buried for so long.

Our souls slowly learned how to slow dance together in

The darkness that has consumed our minds

You’ve left your mark in a corner 

Of my heart, no one has ever been before 

You are the contained chaos that I wish I knew sooner in life 

You were never supposed to mean this much to me

I’ve looked deeply into your eyes and found something indescribable. 

Somewhere in another life, we might

 Be damn near perfect for the other

Perhaps I'll see you in another life

But for now, I guess we will

 Have to be

 Okay, with secretly needing to be together.