The snap

Its cold. Is it? Im cold Im shaking, shadows moving lights blurred Light? No wrong no lights. Its late Where am i? Home. No. Yes? No, not home. I hear a fan. Whirling, twirling, cold. Hands, i think. I'm fuzzy, as though i was static on a tv. Blurred edges and slurred minds. Why am i fuzzy, where am i? Hands. Grabbing Prodding Moving Not mine not my hands not my Dad. Where is he? What's going on Emily is gone Hanna is gone Noe is gone Is he gone too? No wrong so very wrong Cotton mouth filled with cotton Warm cotton Solid cotton? Not cotton. Cold Warm, pain Pain? Puncture pop pact pained Pill? Snap. The fan, cold, cant sleep, gary, offering, the pill. I took the pill Im faided fuzzy funny Stop concentrate What am i? Raped. Where am i? His room. The fan whirling whistling whimpering Focus. Position? Compromised Dad? Nude. Me? Cold. Move. Think. Focus, analyze personalize punctual Stop. Assessment. I've moved. Door? Locked. Shower? Running? Gary? snapped. He has snapped Dad snapped. Im snapped My mind snapped. My life has been snapped in half. No. My life is intact. Move on, move forward. Don't snap Stay strong. The future is still here Move along. Don't snap.