Soak in silence

The heart is pumping, the mind moves in wonder, but I still sit in silence, why is that? My thoughts are racing but my mouth isn’t moving, why is that? The glimmers in my eyes but my face stays disguised, why is that? Is it because the lies and disbelief that I’ve come across? Is it because my mum was an unpredictable drinker? Is it because my Father just enters my life and wants me to forgive him for the time he missed? 

The heart is pumping, the mind moves in wonder, but I still sit in silence, why is that? My thoughts are racing but my mouth isn't moving, why is that? The glimmers in my eyes but my face stays disguised, why is that? Is it because lies and disbelief that I've come across?  Is it because the lies that I have been told? Is it because of the life I am exposed to? Is it because of the violence I have seen? It is because I haven't got a chance to be a child? 

I repeat, The heart is pumping, the mind moves in wonder, but I still sit in silence, why is that? My thoughts are racing but my mouth isn't moving, why is that? The glimmers in my eyes but my face stays disguised, why is that? Is it because lies and disbelief that I've come across?  Is it because of the black on black crimes? Is it because of the judgment and hate people give to one another? Is it because of all the families that's disUnited? Is it because all the young folks that place in cells for a stupid mistakes? 

But what if the heart stops pumping, 

And if my mind stops wondering 

If the silence breaks ?

And there’s no glimmer in my eyes

I’m no longer in disguise 

My heart is cold

My emotions stop 

The problems I come across will never stop

I understand that now 

So I continue to sit 

To sit in silence 

Now I know that the silence will never break  (AJ)