Soliloquy

SOLILOQUY -An original poem by AnnMarie Corpuz Singing softly singing, always pouring heart and soul into these words but no one's listening no one can hear me singing and so I'm screaming - begging, crying out to be heard, these words yet they still don't hear me, why don't they hear me? Can they even see me? ...I reach out and say "I'm right here," -but nothing- "Please don't leave me" - but they always do There's no one to listen to all the things I want to say... And I just want to say that "I'm glad you're here" -but no one is here. No one is ever here to listen to my silent screams, muffled shouts. These songs and words -my words- they fall upon deaf ears It's maddening, this loneliness the feeling of not knowing where to go. Not knowing where or why or how. But I'm going to face the world alone, and it's so frightening, so chilling because there's no one and I just wish there were someone who would, would take the time to sit down and understand. I'd only need five minutes. Maybe it's my fault for being so reserved in the way I speak, the way I dress, the way I act- is that why then don't see me? Is that they won't hear me? But I'm right in front of you! I'm living! I'm breathing! ...or am I not really living? ...or singing? Could it be that I'm not singing?