Someday one day

Someday He’ll look at me, someday he’ll smile. Will he? Will he truly someday? I hardly think he would. it hurts a lot knowing I lose, I feel nervous and give up I fall down once again and no one can lift me up anyway. All these months of being close and being nice didn’t pay a single penny and are now known as worthless beginnings with devastating endings, now my thoughts are blank. I don't even have any Someday he’ll forgive me or forget me, but I won’t forget him. My heart is bright but a little dim. Sometimes I hate him, sometimes I don't. Sometimes I want to hurt him, but I know I won’t. Someday one day I’ll smile when I see him smiling at me.