Somehow

You get this notion, sometimes

Reaching from inside, somewhere

Leaving a vacant feeling of missing, something

Sometimes somewhere something doesn’t fit

Sometimes it doesn’t have to fit

Sometimes you think you want it to

Sometimes it only fits the way you need it to

But this dismal tug from inside

Somewhere, it gives you something

Somewhere, inside that gaping hole, you gain

Somewhere, this unquantifiable feeling

Makes sense and eases your mind from emptiness

Something is left to wonder, ponder, feel

Something to feel sad and lost about

Something to leave you with a sense of purpose

A necessary fallacy that lies to your inner most needs

I tell myself, lost girl, you need to be happy

But I found happiness, and only felt astray

As tears would swell and fall, I felt comfort

This familiar despair had kissed me again

Without reason, I drifted to sleep in contradiction

This lonely hallow grief made me feel whole

The gaping hole inside made me complete

For some reason, this sadness made me happy

Somehow somewhere something makes sense…sometimes