Sometimes I lie awake

Staring at the nothingness of the dark

Everything familiar enveloped by mystery

  Sometimes I chew slowly

Letting the taste caress my tongue

Feeling the flavors intertwine 

  Sometimes I read aloud

Just to feel the words

In my mouth

  Sometimes I walk in the rain

Just to feel the wet drench

My tragically cold clothes

  I run through the mud

Lay in the grass

Allow myself to be cut by glass

  But when it comes to love

I'd much rather nestle into a corner

Favorite book in hand

  Sometimes I feel

But push it to the side

Who said you need love to feel alive?

  Sometimes I gather courage 

but ignore it and finish chapter five

Allow what could be to slip by

  Sometimes I let the feelings go through

Try to let the love grow

Constant fear refuses to let go

  So here I am

Staring at a page

Trying to find the reason behind my ways