Sometimes

Sometimes i wish people would look at me and see that im not okay 

that most nights i cry myself to sleep 

making sure my daughter doesnt hear me weep

Cause its hard when even when you sleep you dream about nothing but pain so it is a dream or a nightmare?

What can you do when you have fallen in to deep depression , when killing yourself has become a option , no happiness , i have completely lost myself , only to find the one thing that keeping me alive is my child who always have the biggest smile.

Sometimes i wish she could understand that mommy has to got to school and work so her childhood and future will be everything i wish mine was

Sometimes i wish everyone could see the love i have from them , i really wish i could tell them why im always so mad or angry

but not even i knows why... 

Sometimes i wish i could be happy even though i smile all the time doesnt mean im happy.

Sometimes i wish god would just make it easy for me to happy.