sometimes i feel like bursting

sometimes i feel like bursting into to tears because of feelings deep inside my heart i need to relieve these feelings that i feel damn aren't i man, it doesn't suppose to go down like that the pain still hurts, i still remember the feelings i felt way back from the past and never have i ask anyone but for help other than the man from up there i patiently waiting because i know one day he would answer all my prayers and i know life inst fair but sometimes i want to see good for myself and good for everybody else but its hard because i hide everything i can and that just makes me the man that i am to be a man im supposed to be strong and take responsibilities and i have, so i ask what am i supposed to do when you can even talk to the person who you’re the closest too and when you try to talk they make you feel uncomfortable deep inside i play tuggawar fighting these things that's in my mind sometimes i win sometimes i lose and other times im forced to choose side if i ever asked you why could you ever answer me because i need an answer and to understand clearly if you ever felt me you would know that im a little crazy and at times i can be a little insane could it be my past, who's to blame all i know is that things have really change can you help me lord and please show me a way i wish to find out before my last days and maybe one day i will learn to express the way i feel and not be to afraid to let other see me tear if i can express the way feel though my poems, lord i ask do we have a deal