Sometimes I wonder
Sometimes I wonder
If I ever was a kid.
I'm no Benjamin Button, sure
And I've not toiled like so many others had to
But I've had my own struggles, too.
Sometimes I wonder
If my parents were ready for a kid
And if they weren't,
Perhaps it's why I never was one
At least not for long.
Sometimes I wonder
If my grandma enjoys raising me
While my birth parents have
Their new families and kids
That made the cut like I didn't.
Sometimes I wonder
If maybe I am still a kid
Who's pretending to be grown
To parent herself
In place of those who left
Sometimes I wonder
As I learn to pay taxes
And fund my own college career
When I "grew up"
Or if there is such a thing
Sometimes I wonder
If its so bad
To be both grown
And still growing,
As I continue to figure the world out myself