Sometimes I wonder

Sometimes I wonder

If I ever was a kid.

I'm no Benjamin Button, sure

And I've not toiled like so many others had to

But I've had my own struggles, too.

Sometimes I wonder 

If my parents were ready for a kid

And if they weren't,

Perhaps it's why I never was one

At least not for long.

Sometimes I wonder

If my grandma enjoys raising me

While my birth parents have

Their new families and kids

That made the cut like I didn't.

Sometimes I wonder

If maybe I am still a kid

Who's pretending to be grown

To parent herself

In place of those who left

Sometimes I wonder

As I learn to pay taxes

And fund my own college career

When I "grew up"

Or if there is such a thing

Sometimes I wonder

If its so bad

To be both grown

And still growing,

As I continue to figure the world out myself