Somniphobia

4:24 at late night

I don't call it morning cause' it ain't bright...

I can't fall asleep

I'm afraid I might have a dream and fall too deep

My subconscious keeps dragging further and further in

Any light at the end of the tunnel is growing dim

Struggling to wrench myself from the darkness, my chances are slim

I've tried everything; even fear can't push me

My voice is getting softer, and I know that this nightmare is trying to shush me

False hope and insecurities gang up and ambush me

I'm struggling against my chains

But they're forged from all my pain

Anything that I shouldn't have kept in my mind that's left a stain

My body keeps giving me a warning...

If I keep forcing this insomnia on myself, I won't be able to purge

From the surge of all the outside influences

But I've already let enough through all of my inner defenses

So much for six senses

I think I might strain myself until I'm straight senseless

I swear, I feel so damn helpless

The assault on my conscience is ruthless, relentless

I wish that someone else has felt this...

So that they could tell me what to do 

Because I'm drowning in the dirtiest little cesspool

And the only lifesaver seems to be to close my eyes

And enter dreamland.....

But I'm too paranoid, cause I don't wanna ever wanna meet the Sandman

Then I'd be forced to suffer

For all of the neglecting, and no wake could ever be a good-enough butler...

...Zzzzz....zzzzZZzz...*snore*