The Song of a Dying Bird

To those who deal with depression,

She tells me I don’t respect her

That I’m never around

She tells me she doesn’t want me

I’m thrown to the ground

I cook to make her happy

I try when she’s sad

I clean up the house, so it’s not too bad

Although I make mistakes

I do great things too

But I guess she’ll never see

That I love her too

He enjoys manipulation

But I never really cared

I enjoy his company so I pretend i’m unaware

I’ve just made a living promise that I cannot break

So now I wait

For him to tell me I was a mistake

To disappear from my life, to fade from my view

The day he does that to me

I’ll never tell him, but, i’ll disappear too

I love everyone in my life

I couldn’t be happier

The fact that I don’t matter

Is a non-hindering factor

I know it sounds so stupid

But listen to the rest

There is just one last thing I want to confess

I’ll never be perfect

And i’ve made some mistakes

Time could come and save me but I think i’ll come find it

I’ve always wanted to be strong

To hide that i’m so weak

I pretend to be there, to hide my true physique

I’m sorry that i’m too weak, to deal with living alone

But I don’t feel like I have any place or home

So now i’ll say goodbye

I’ll let the new times pass me by

I hope you can forgive me

Wait , no, I know you can

Just know that I loved u, as much as I could and can

That in my confusion, that’s the one thing that’s always stood

I understand that you don’t need me

I get that you don’t care

So now that I have no reason,

To stay and sing a living song

I guess i’ll disappear

To the darkness I came from

I’m done dealing with bullshit

I don’t want it anymore

Collette