Sorry

My body becomes weak My vison had turned blurry I hear the paramedics screaming We are losing her, Hurry! I am starting to feel sleepy But they refused to let me sleep ¨You have to keep your eyes open If your life you plan to keep¨ I see the light become brighter And nothing seems real My body is going numb now And the pain I can no longer feel I look over to the right My mother face filled tears I feel guilt start to set in For what I´ve put her through the last few years I want to say i´m sorry But my mouth won´t say a word It wouldn´t matter much anyways From all the bullshit she has heard I want to be a good girl I promise mom I can change I´ll get my life straightened out And my priorities rearranged I can feel her hand squeeze mine As I fight for my life Lord if you give me a second chance I promise I´ll do it right I know I´ve said this all before All the empty promises I´ve made But this promise I intend to keep If my life you can just save Crying over my lifeless body I can hear my mom begin to pray She didn´t believe in God before But I guess she started today I want nothing more than to console her And tell her everything will be okay But I couldn´t put the needle down So the price I must now pay I can feel my mind fade away And the light is becoming brighter My mothers hand still holding mine As she squeezes even tighter I am sorry mom for leaving you I never meant for it to end like this All the things I´ll never get to do All the happy moments I will have to miss I tried so hard to be a good daughter But temptation got the best of me I hope you never blame yourself You were the best mother you could be All the things I want to tell you But have no energy left to do so But I love you mom with all my heart That I hope you know But my time is coming soon I can feel myself floating away ¨I love you my sweet child¨ I heard my mother say ¨No matter what I am proud of you And my daughter you´ll always be I look forward to seeing you again Save a place in heaven for me¨ She kissed my forehead softly And squeezed my hand tight Then peace surrounded me As I walked toward the light