Speak

i simply wish to speak without a curse holding me back i dream of letting words come out from the inside out without a trail of tears following falling from my eyes as if they were the skies i simply want the heart beating to die to just a little sound such hard pounding to stop it shows what my fears are from the inside out the flush on my face is just another sign of all the thing i keep since i have too much fear to speak i don’t want to hurt anyone not a prick from a pin not a slap from a belt or the back of a hand let me just hold you no one deserves a blow from their father or a hit from a lover as if they’re a bother the red should have gone i wish you had gone but you have help me grow from a seed that was planted and roots that spread the only thing to hold me up is my own stem i’m not yet a flower; i’ll continue to grow but i can sit here and say i know i spoke