special heart breaker

i walk into a crowded room

as soon as my eye catches another

Two pairs touch without crows feet 

i stand to where everyone can see

the true colors drop from my own cheeks

i want them to know how i feel

i’m broken underneath a smile made out of steal

Foot prints distinguish the disguise of the emotion 

But reveals the grasp of faith and hope left with a shattered hourglass 

Waiting for the crowd to applaud for best actress 

But wearing a mask fools all, all that you need is practice

What is needed is a warm embrace 

To only remind your thoughts to go on race 

A race where only one wants the pages to flip rapidly to the climax

As the storm turns into a rainbow above all but what looks like white pearls

While my stomach constantly is in a twirl

In reality what that one thinks isn’t what’s right 

As to what women wants is to be treated right

Daisy colors might spill in my hands 

as well as your apple sweet cheeks 

As you kiss my forehead full of defeat

A snail wins over a rabbit 

As your behavior turned into a habit 

My emotions for you were enormous 

When you sounded like a broken stereo telling me I’m gorgeous 

I showed you months are impossible to put into your wrist watch

you didn’t understand risk factors that I caught

I was exhausted of this marathon 

sweating from the rush of energy pulled on

Maybe I’m just ignorant to say I’m not ready

To use my mouth to spill my mind that wasn’t steady 

My brain had a mix of my heart 

But All I do is hide under a shell 

As you put my heart into your garage sell

I want you, I like you, please don’t leave me around 

No, don’t listen, I’m not just some rebound 

But your cute, sweet, charming, you swept me off my feet

You rushed me, confuse me, you sounded like a creep

No you didn’t

Yes you did

I don’t know what to do 

Oh never mind how can you be so rude

I try to speak out, and get out of my shell

I told you what’s right and how I felt, that isn’t well

I hope you won’t leave me begging on my knees

But that’s exactly what you did when you left me to sweep

I come back cuz I can’t keep my emotions closed up

The circle reverses and I erupted 

I’m bleeding on the floor as i get stabbed in the back

I’m ignored, almost blocked, I get it your right

Wanting to look over to show off my dimples

I lost something so good and bad in one ripple   

A paper that’s been crumpled and left in the dust

Until now it unfolds as it must never be new

The texture is so rough the writing is faded

You can almost see what is written 

There lies the names so broke ones heart

There’s many more left to get the job done 

Light brown eyes, crows feet, white pearls

My emotions controlled me when you embraces my tears 

Tears for another, you know you were there

I was trouble, but, you kept me from despair 

Months on end you come back to me

What do you want friendship or fatality

A touch is electric, almost deadly

But my thoughts cared less as I touched your body 

I felt your lips compress my head

After all you still left me on read

We finished as friends whether if we liked it or not

I still wonder if I should of laid lips onto yours till rot

Instead I looked into the brown eyes

As I said, “Good night, thank you” as I let go of your hand

I felt your finger tips as I was walking away 

I wish I looked back and rather tell you to stay

Half of myself regrets my decisions I made 

But the other half tends to know what’s best for me as it rains 

Drip, drop, as clouds form 

I lie on the floor as I see it preform

The skies mixed up not knowing what to do

So it makes a tornado like mixing cold brew

Mother nature uses earths grass to wipe her tears 

As she cries with me while I can’t steer 

I’m going in circles, I want to collapse 

As the sun falls down, and everything seems right

No matter how much I try, the moon light hits 

As it’s too late, the darkness sits

I want to say one sentence that could just change all 

But I kept myself from saying it since time is what’s called

Excuses, excuse I’ll get to the point 

I want you that’s all and there’s one more thing 

I just can’t help but say you were the one 

You’ve turned my mind into stone 

You’re a shiny gem I threw away

I’m sorry, you precious, I’ve made a mistake 

You might of took what I said the wrong way

But in reality I want you to stay

One thing, just this one thing I could of said 

Could of healed all and forget 

Forget all I told you this is what’s now 

You’re charming, sweet, cute gotta remind you once more

I can do this all day but I got to get to the point 

I wish you were here, I miss you, can’t you tell 

Do you still like me, is it too late 

This is what I mean now, I want you to stay

I love you and don’t forget that, that’s all what’s on my slate 

Your love is what I dedicate