Stare

"Why are you looking at me like that "... he says nothing smiles and looks forward I then ask 'is there something on my face " and he gives me a little giggle looks at me the same way again says" no " and looks in front of us again... I ask him this question and I get no answer I try to ask anytime we stare at each other and he stares at me like he is trying to figure something out he always does... he will tilt his head just slightly gaze at me with those ocean blue things he calls eyes that I can get lost in and just go deeper and deeper in and then will just smile to himself or giggle and I get so confused is he looking at me like that because of something I am always afraid he looks at me that way to see if he can find my flaws and I am scared he always finds them and will most likely hate me when he does... I wish I could ask him are you trying to find my flaws and he just do his little giggle of a laugh I love so much and smile and look me dead on and say no that's impossible and I would ask why and he would say because you have non... but dreams are just dreams right and no matter what I say or do he will never look at me the way he looks at her... but that got me thinking he doesn't look at me the way he looks at her he looks are so differently compared to the way he looks at her he looks at her the way he looks at everyone else... except me so why does he look at me differently... then I thought wait how does he look at me when I am not looking and see him looking at me and I just want to know... why do you give me nicknames but never actually tell me why do you look at me that way and never tell me why is it you tell my best friend but then she says nope cant tell you and I get left behind I just want to talk but when I try to talk you never do you just look at me the way you do and I look at you as if your my whole world because you are my whole world so what am I too you...