Starstruck

pages upon pages, so many endless thoughts But it's always you that's on my mind and without you I'm lost Good things and the bad The bad seems to always win Because I can't win For I know loving you is a sin It's unhealthy... You know... To love another human more than anyone could ever imagine And it's crazy because he hurt me... And I KNOW I should have walked away But I didn't... My feet glued to the floor His face in every square inch of my mind GOOOODDD I CAN'T GET HIM OUT OF MY HEAD He apologizes... I forgive him... Am I dumb? Stupid? Naive? And it's not just for the title I genuinely care about him A lot And I just can't find the courage to leave And no matter how many times He cheated Lied Took advantage of me Decieved me when I trusted him I....Still.... Loved... Him Silly me Guess what they say is true , I do have a big heart And I HATE that I hate all the pages I write and the endless thoughts I hate that I can't stop thinking about you for even ONE second I hate how much I love you I hate how much I care But... I love how you're always there (Even if you don't want to admit that I was second choice) it's okay I KNOW I love how you seem to know when somethings wrong And you won't leave me alone until you know what's going on I just love you and it's unhealthy And I know no ones perfect and I know that's not an excuse but Hey.... Your not perfect but your the perfect nothing