Staying Afloat

I have finally let go.

I told you what you needed to know-

I’m hoping that the words will stick,

and somehow help fix our sinking ship.

But I know what we need is just more time

More time to clear, and understand our minds.

Because I can’t help you, while helping me too

Something’s gotta give, that’s the simple truth.

If I hurt you, I’m sorry, but at least the truth’s been told.

It would’ve been worse if I let resentment rot me until it’s too late, and I’m old.

At least now you know where I stand,

Think of my words as an outstretched hand

I’m trying to let you back into my heart and home

Trying to let you know I don’t want you or I to be alone

It’s hard not to hurt the ones you love the most

We say things, we don’t mean because we think they can handle the load

I love you, you know that, that’s why I say let’s try

To figure out where we went wrong, so we don’t have to wonder why

We must communicate and confront these problems before they arise

Otherwise, they bubble and explode over our cries

I’m sorry, I’ve shut myself off and down

Especially when you need my help around

I forgive me- for being selfish and self centered - it’s all I knew how to do

But now I know what my problem is and this helps me move on too

I’ve admitted where I went wrong

And this will help rebuild the bond

It takes a lot to call myself out, but it helps all in the long run.