They said it’d be a change
And it wouldn’t be easy;
Living a life like this
Isn’t a joyride.
I didn’t expect it to be
But I also thought I was stronger than this.
Sometimes I feel like I’m holding onto air
Like I’m living my life for something fake.
I feel bad saying it, but it’s only the truth
I’m not the only one struggling
Even though it feels that way.
The world is tempting, every single day
Where is the line
Because I can’t see it.
They say I’ll desire to live right
But sometimes I don’t.
Sometimes I just don’t.
It doesn’t mean I don’t want to
It’s just gotten so hard
I don’t feel Him anywhere
Though He’s right by my side.
I’m pushing Him away with my hands
Pulling Him closer with my heart
Body and mind, at war
Soul and flesh, fighting.
I’m weak, far too weak
Can’t do it on my own.
And He tells me I don’t have to
His Strength is my Refuge
His Love is my Shelter
His Grace is my Reason
For every day, for every second.
I missed the whole point:
Relying on Him.
This world will come down
Burden me, fight me
But residing in Him I’m stirred,