stolen virtue

I use to run around the neighborhood all day long with shay. We'd go from my house, to her house. Go to the park to see who was there, and what was going on. Everyone knew everyone, so there was always something to do.... Somewhere to be. Now my friend shay, she was a little bit of a minx and everyone knew but it was ok because she was my friend. I'd just laugh along to her stories of lovemaking to the random passerby's she'd seduce. Her fantasies allowed me to live vicariously through them.. Of course I was still pure at the time, I could only imagine what sex was like. I was interested to know, yet terrified to find out. I trembled at the thought of letting another human being enter my sacred temple. The way she talked about it, she made it seem like it was the thing to do. She advertised it as if it was the new drug on the market.. All of the kids are doing it. I was so anxious to experience this. All of my friends would talk about it, And I was left to present only the stories i could conjure out of thin air. They were more-so how I envisioned my first time to be. Everytime I could prepare a different scenario.. They had to know I was lying. One day me and shay were at my house.. Just hanging out, & talking.. The usual really. Devonte called her.. Devonte was her boo so her cheeks would pink up Everytime he called. All I remember from that conversation was her saying, well I'm at rere's house so just come over here. We all lived in the same neighborhood, so he knew where I lived. & of course when he came he brought Larry. Niggas always gotta bring a friend. So we all chopped it up for a minute, and slowly they began to settle next to both of us. Devonte and shay started to kiss.. and it got a little awkward. Me & Larry just kind of sat there. He tried to kiss my neck, and caress my thighs but I kept moving his hands. I just turned away because I didn't want to just stare at them while they did.. Whatever it is they were going to do. Again Larry tried to kiss me.. I did like him so I figured one harmless kiss wouldn't matter. But that one kiss turned into so much more.. His lips were so soft and supple. As I got more into the kiss I started to imagine what sex would be like with him. Before I knew it his hands were in my pants and I had given him the room to do whatever he had felt with his hands. Shay gets a call and it kind of ruins the mood. Its about 8 and her mom calls and tells her to go home. As she leaves, I tell Devonte and Larry to leave also. I couldn't have two teenage boys in my house alone with just I. About an hour later I get a call from Larry.. He says he wants to come back over, just him.. Although I wanted him to come back, I had second thoughts about it. I didn't know exactly what his intentions were. I asked, and over course he said he just wanted to chill... And I ate it up because I was young and I knew no better. When he came in its like there was something different about him. His entire demeanor had changed. He sat so close to me I could feel his body heat .. But it felt so good to me. He kissed me lightly on my neck, and ran his hands up my thighs. He lifted my shirt and began soft, kisses onto my stomach. It made me feel good so I didn't stop him, but I wondered how far he tried to go. he kissed in between my breasts as he tried to unclip my bra.. I liked him so much and all I wanted was for him to like me. So I let him continue. Once my bra was off he reached down to unzip my pants, and I stopped him. It had just suddenly gotten real, very fast and I wanted to slow down. He tried over & over to convince me. He could tell I was scared, he knew it would be my first time. He grabbed my hand and looked into my eyes and said I know its a little scary, but I promise I'll be gentle with you. I won't hurt you, I just need you to trust me. So I did. As he turned around to put the condom on I finished undressing and got up under the cover. I was so scared, my knee's were trembling and my heart was beating faster than ever. He turned back around, and got up under the covers with me. He was way bigger than I had expected. To this day I can't remember if it was actually BIG or was I exaggerating.. I mean this was the first penis I had ever seen. Anything could've been big at this point.. So he climbs on top of me and proceeds to put it in. I didn't know what to expect. From the stories I had heard, I felt as if It would be like a broom trying to pass through a button hole. At this point I was just ready to get the pain over with, and get to the good part.. Yunno, the Oo's and Ahh's that I'd seen from the movies. As he tried to put it in i clenched his back, and dug my nails into his dark chocolate skin. I'm pretty sure I left a pretty impressionable mark on his back... My body started to go numb and once he was actually in he had to pry my nails out of his skin like claws. His strokes were those of a first timer also.. I could tell although I was. He was just as clueless as I. After the most terrifying 4 minutes of my life had came to a complete end.. I just kind of layed there. I didn't even walk him to the door, I let him find his own way. I just sat there for about 10 minutes thinking about what I had done, & how it was nothing like I had ever pictured it. I was kind of disappointed, but also glad that I had done it. My experience was nothing like my fantasy, but at least this story existed in actual reality.