STOP

They never stop Tears stream down my face I long for them to stop But they never stop Mind constantly racing, cluttered Surrounded by superiors dictating, peers gossiping Work to be done, intelligence to display Tasks seem impossible when they don’t stop Thoughts of what? Absolutely nothing Thoughts of uncontrollable things, thoughts of things I long to change Thoughts of random occurrences, thoughts of depression Thoughts of a better tomorrow, thoughts of horrible yesterdays Are events fate or destiny? Are we able to change destiny, to stray away from the path set before us? Racing continues What is my destiny? The medicine is failing, they say You’ll be fine when we get you stable, they say Words destined for encouragement only fuel the depression Give it time; you’ll be fine, they say Self-medication is my only release, the only way it stops Drink until the thoughts are incomprehensible Smoke until the dopamine is forced to soothe me So I allow it to all envelop me, for the sole purpose of peace