Stop

do you ever just

stop,

and feel like nothing matters.

you're not happy.

you're not sad.

you're not angry.

i had thought this feeling was gone.

and i could finally live as happy as i thought i was.

but here it is like an old friend

creeping in the back of my head, 

telling me that this feeling will never end.

i hope it does though,

becuase it scares me.

not feeling anything

not happiness nor happiness.

not even anger.

it makes you feel less human

and more of something evil inside

who is clawing 

begging to be released.

i want to feel human again.

i want to feel anything.

happy.

sad.

mad.

envy.

anything to make me feel more human

and less like a monster.