Strength & Pain to Prevent the Sadness

Dear Grandma,

I never express myself fully but when I am with you I just feel like all my problems go away.  It's like my day brightens up when I am around you. When I told my mom last summer I was just going to spend a week over there helping her out, I ended up spending the whole summer over there; I LOVE IT so much. I enjoyed waking up at four in the morning to get her dress and ready for diaysis on Tuesday , Thursday , and Saturday. Even through I knew I had to be at work early too, but nothing stopped me or came before my grandma. Back in 2014 I had came home from school and my mom had told me needed heart surgery. My whole heart felt like it was torn out my body. My mom said we would be able to see her after but that's not what I wanted. I wanted to be with her right that moment. When I get ready to graduate in 2015 my mom told me my grandma had on set alzheimers and that was bling in her left eye. I didn't even want to walk across the stage. I just stopped caring about everything. In 2016 my grandma was always in and out the hospital all that year which made me even more pissed off. In 2017 I spent the summer with her and myn grandpa. I help him keep her clean, got her up for diyasis and fed her. I felt like I had picked up a  big responsibitity. August 2017 my had to have leg surguery and it killed me even more . I respect her , and appericate her for everything she taught me.