A Strong Word, A Weak Mind

Love is a strong word

To love someone is to communicate

To have trust

To compromise

I cannot properly articulate my thoughts

Or my feelings

Or anything

Not very well anyway

And I have little trust in anyone

I'm so afraid of everyone

I constantly remind myself

That I always have to hide myself

So no one can take advantage of me

Or my weaknesses

So I do not love

I cannot truly love

But with whatever twisted version of love that I have

I love you

Just like the moon loves the night

And the sun loves the bright

And the moth loves the light

And the bird loves the flight

I love you

But it's hard sometimes

When you yell

And I cry

And you tell me that you've

Tried to make yourself better

But you don't

You keep blaming me

Telling me that it's my

Faulty way of loving that makes you like this

But damn it all

I still love you

Through all the shit

And all the fights

And all the tears

And the restless nights

When all we want is to get some sleep

I still love you

And I try to tell myself

To convince myself

That this isn't healthy

That this is not right

That I have to worry for my own sanity

Instead of yours

But it never works

And I keep finding reasons to stay

It's been ten months

Ten great months with someone

Who loves me unconditionally

An ally who's there for me

More often than not

But slips up sometimes

And I want to slip away

From everything

And recluse myself

Excusing myself from society's

Expectations of love

But I don't

Because I love you

For God's sake, I love you

And love is such a strong word

For someone with such a weak mind

Like me