The Struggle

The struggle isn't always about trying to make it out

Its not about trying to get through hardships by taking the safer route

The struggle for me is everyday of my life

Taking a test not knowing if my answers are wrong or right 

Sometimes I just want to lay over and start heading for the light

But I have to keep going every day and night

The struggle for me is knowing my father won't come back

Knowing that he doesn't love me, and I have to accept that 

The struggle for me is knowing that I can't get into college with low grades

Im sorry momma but I just can't get A's

I try so hard to get through simple school days

That I just lose focus and start to think about my next pair of J's

The struggle of me is knowing that I wont start

Because at heart

I know that baseball is my art

The struggle for me is knowing that my grandma is dying

Each night hearing her pain and Im in the other room crying

The struggle for me is people believing that I am not black because I live in a white neighborhood

Now what's wrong with that?

Just because a black man has the income to live in a white community means that the man isnt black and can't enjoy the oppurtunity?

The struggle for me is hearing racism everywhere I go

But I dont say anything because I know

That whatever I say, they will say something racist back and I dont feel like hearing that you know?

The struggle for me is just everything going on

But I face it everyday and tell myself to just "move along"