The Struggle

The Struggle

To everyone,

Do you know the struggle?

The struggle of living in foster care

The struggle of being mixed mexican and white

I hate half of myself

And love the other half

Constantly denying part of myself cause im ashamed

You think I would belong with both

Whites and mexicans

I dont belong with whites cause I grew up poor

I like spicy food and speak spanglish

I have mexican traditions

And i don't understand white privilege

I do belong more with mexicans

but i'm light skinned

My spanish is not perfect

I hate that i'm half white

Makes me sick to my stomach

If you ask I say i am full mexican

But it is a lie

I feel more comfortable with mexicans

I visit TJ a lot

But i always remember that theirs that white part in me

And i hate it

Do you know the struggle?

Struggle of being abused

Struggle of moving from home to home

Struggle of never belonging anywhere

The struggle of not having either of your parent

I could write a book on all my struggles

And that's okay

My Struggles are what made me who I am

I hate that I had to struggle

But i love who they made me today

I would never change my struggles

But I still would never wish them on someone else