Stuck

Stuck.

What do you do when you feel stuck?

When it feels like the world is against you, what do you do?

Stuck.

When your back is against the wall and you don’t know what to do.

How do you break through?

Raised to be strong

Trying not to show emotion so you feel

Stuck.

Music used to be your only escape, but it stopped helping

You try to sleep but when you lay down you just feel

Stuck.

How do you free your mind from the negativity?

How do you move past the voice inside your head?

End it.

You don’t have to feel so

Stuck.

So you try.

Only to see that it affects those around you

So you save yourself.

You save yourself because it’s what they want

But they’re the ones who break you down

So you’re back to feeling

Stuck.

You’re drowning in medication to help you

Stares from those who love you

But you see your scars and you just feel

Stuck.

Stuck wearing long sleeves.

Stuck with locked cabinets and limited showers

Stuck with chaperones that watch your every move

Stuck with constant phone calls and text messages in order to see if you still respond

Stuck.  

I don’t want to feel stuck anymore

I live for the day that I find the strength to break free

The day I find power to love again

Love myself

Love those around me

Just love life in general so I don’t have to feel

Stuck.

I now know what it is like to lose everything

I know what it’s like to feel vulnerable

Followed by a black cloud that you can’t shake.

Stuck.

But I’m alive

I’m ready to move forward

No longer stuck between the judgment of others and the harsh words of those around me

I will no longer be

Stuck.