stuck

i felt the need to write this down

quickly please

let the darkness out.

there's so much I would write

god, my thoughts

they haunt me

they stalk me in my sleep

i wish i could get a repellent

know there isnt one

i can only bleed

my words on this screen

cant get the motivation

to scribble it in a journal

dont know where it went

i cant just communicate

how i think i feel

without feeling insecure

that maybe im making it up

i have lied to myself

help

im lost

this cant help

god my fears

they keep me from going out

fears

they hurt

they twist your stomach

so painful

lord is this real

lord are you real

lord will i dissapear

lord i need help

lord why wont you answer

i dont pray

i cant

my conciousness tells me

so strongly

god is fake

and i cant escape that thought

like how time is inevitable

and how nothing lasts forever

and how life is going by so quick

how i cant make it stop

why cant i be stuck

stuck in a time

endless loop

with my friends

my family

before all this happens?