Stuck in between the two

I used an outlet for an income, That stuff was real when Drake said you lose some you win some, I lacked love and started something new beginning with lust, but my mind just couldn't wrap aroung the thoughts of starting a new trust, I never gave it much thought because your impression of your flourescent curves pressing upon me, made me realize this can possibly be, And the fact that the past wasn't acting right and caused me so much pain, Gave me even more of the reason to continue to accept this comfortability to maintain, but why couldn't I provide this girl with the same compassion that was give to me, Excuse my attitude but I think it was the girl that I receded couldn't continue to gratify me, Angered and apalled I rushed into something new, knowing thismay be a mistake when my mind overflows memories of you, Trying to please two of you this just became unmanageable, It was irrational to have the audacity to even think this was tangible, Well now I have to make a decision because my mind was ignorant but my heart is clever, A sight behold I pray that this display does not linger forever.