Suffering

Suffering is beautiful

So watch me fade away.

We’ll play a game together,

You and I,

I’ll disappear and

You try to save me

From drifting through the sieve of life,

Although you know that to disappear I have to suffer,

It still doesn’t make you believe that I’m

Beautiful.

Will I ever be?

Enough for you to see everything I’ve put myself through

Was only to be a part of you.

I’ve put myself through immoral suffering

But I don’t mind,

Because it makes me

Beautiful.

And, if I suffer enough,

I won’t feel it anymore and you might accept me

Love me

Want me in your life

Again. 

But in my heart I know

I don’t deserve you

And all I want is to be

Beautiful.