Suffocating

A beating begins in the chest of another

Coupling the retreating of my heart to its own,  

Rising expectations meets a growing terror,

At a sudden and too quickly developed love

My throat catches at the look

Eyes weighted with crushing affections

Desperation and blind adoration

Drawing  “queen” and “love” from his lips

But before me kneels a vulture    

Circling, closing, coming quick

Near and Near it comes to claim me.

Resistance sprawling, Fear growing thick

Wrapping ‘round it comes to take me

Surrounds me-pins me to a wall;

Suffocating, it suppressed me

Conditional love ties, anchoring me down

Visions of freedom plucked from a broken back

Cages cast on my horizons

Shallow love lurking in it’s ominous wrath   

Demanding the sacrifice of my future’s ashes

I ran as far as my feet would take me

Dust and crystals in my wake.

The clock struck nine- but never twelve

A spell ran out and I had left it all behind.