Summer lover

I step into the ocean, Pray I don’t drown You engulf me, swallow me down At first I feel light as I float with your care, then I run out of oxygen-I beg for air. The pull and push of your waves draw me in, spit me back out so I can miss you again. Perhaps I preferred the tide, The shore was too coarse to stand. Cuts marked by grain prove to me I’m not enough, Your Salt water reminds me of that familiar sting again, I realised the tide changes, the waves I loved won’t always be there. I cannot pick and choose how I want to move. But You have to love the ocean whole, it’s too vast to isolate, and I was to selfish too see, That I loved you for your waves, and you loved the whole of me