The Sun Rose

The sun rose this morning

I picked rose petals in mourning

Its a cloudy day, the day is black

The day bleeds like a wound from broken bottle glass

This feeling is familiar, it feels like through this I can heal it

I wonder if my actions are advent from my double helix

I need this, I feel this pain

Washing away, like sand on the beach

A whole collage of drugs to choose from

I chose you. Symbiotic relationship

I count rose petals with you

Suppressed into the deepest darkest corner

I love hate this feeling. You only get it if you’ve had this feeling

I’ve had to do this since I was only a youngin

They say you have to do it

its an unwritten rule you have to do it

Get crunk xanax pain pills coke

These memories become distant I need them to be

Only reality keeps them within grasp.

You’re the ocean

On the surface you’re beautiful

But you’re so deep

Dark and elegant

People’s warmth is what gives me radiance

The surface only a touch of what I am

I can be so calm but in a blink of an eye

I turn violent like my predecessor

The struggle to stay calm

Temptations give me dualities

The day is black

But I realize I can’t have this day back

I don’t even remember how this day passed

I get mad for no reason

I don’t want to change with the seasons

I want to change the seasons

I don’t want to be mechanical

Everybody waitin on somebody

Tell them what to do

You have to do what you have to do

True leaders don’t wait on anybody or anything

No matter how dark the days get

I count rose petals for all of you

But not in mourning

We celebrate cause

The sun rose again the next morning.