Survive

Walking around with a smile while you hear laughter knowing it's about you

Dancing, spinning around in your new deep blue dress with eyes just as deep

Standing tall, walking down the hall ignoring every elbow and bump because they just didn't see

Screaming in a room full of silent people

Screaming with a smile on your face

Screaming right in front of everyone

See me,

See me before I leave  

Sitting, sitting alone in a room full of loved ones

Driving consumed with deafening music numbing your whole body

Shaking, Shaking in your cold winter bed with the blanket wrapped tight around you

Crying on the road with strangers right next to you

Crying violently in the dark night

Crying, calmy, motionlessly

Hold me,

Hold me before I leave

Watching one person cry while another helps

Hating your one going on without you, doing fine

Wanting the one who you see part of yourself in  

Longing to find someone sad like you

Longing to help show them they are beautiful

Longing to be the one there for another

Need me,

Need me before I leave

Shoving, Shoving all the thoughts of acceptance somewhere they won't be found

Cracking, Cracking all over but still seen in one piece

Wilting, no longer the one you used to be

Grabbing at every dream of a true connection

Grabbing at the thought of your life to start  

Grabbing at every chance to feel something true  

Love me,

Love me before I leave