Swallowed Up

Clouds of grey swirl around me as if to say you are not enough

I want to drown them out but it's too much and it overcomes me

What do I do I ask myself

But that question is to big even for me

How can I ask myself that and never know the answer

I want to be okay with the track I have planned

But everyday that I am there I will wish I was here

That is a fate that I don't think I can handle

No matter the cost I must reconsider

I love this place too much to give it up forever

Or even for a summer that seems too much to handle

I want to say I made the right decision

But in all honesty I don't think I did

Last year I made the decision while drunk and disoriented

But I can tell you that I did not come to regret it

As I sit here today though, did I choose the wrong path?

Was my future secure and now it seems tattered

I guess at some point the grey clouds catch up to you

And swallow you up til there is nothing left 

This time around it may have got the better of me 

But perhaps someday I'll get back up again