Sweet Angel of My Heart

Why? Can you tell me why? My heart is crushed, sad, blue My heart and arms are aching To hold and be with you * I close my eyes and think of how You brought such joy to me The boundless love I felt for you "I'm going to have a baby!" * Your little life inside of mine Filled me with with such glee To think of things I'd show you And how you'd smile at me * Bright-eyed gaze to look at me That soft and gentle cooing Warm and safe inside my arms Vain thoughts! Dark trouble brewing! * What? I'm angry; knotted up The day your life departed Remember how I cried and cried? And since, I've felt half-hearted * "You're wrong, it can't be true! I screamed "It's all a ruse!" Despair, pain, those awful words "We're so sorry, it's not good news." * I felt so angry at myself, What warnings did I not see? Can't I protect a little child Who totally depends on me? * My arms are empty, I'm all alone You couldn't stay for long Waves of sorrow fill my heart I'm trying to be strong * My thoughts, your birth, your babblings Crawling, walking, the first Time you'd sweetly say "Mama"; I think my heart will burst * I couldn't say goodbye, my child That fills me with such pain But deep inside my heart, assured We'll meet, on Heaven's lane * As soon as my time here is done I'll spring beyond the blue I'll lift you tight into my arms And whisper "I love you!" * Please know I can't forget you You're mine, you'll not depart I love you darling baby, Sweet Angel of my heart * by David C. Rogers