taking flight

Taking flight 
By na'shon kemp

I sit there in the darkness waiting for my help as I am laying there seeking I'm drowning in my soul as if it were a well .I lay in my darkness I'm told I'll feel secure but the guilt and pain burns through my heart my help is still not here I lye in my darkness feeling quiet unswell insecure...confusion dazed and distress left in my despair and hopelessness it eats me alive leaves me felling as though nothings left 
It's like I'm a caterpillar stuck in the beginning stages of a butterfly it's time for a change...
Greed fills my heart as hatred consumes my brain 
They leave hopelessness in the dark and me racking deep in pain So I speak these words aloud in order to free up my brain it's time to change and get back on prosperities train so I speak these words yet for some reason the pain still remains see I was left seeking for some help when I knew all along in god shall I find my help I was lost in the materialistic stage and at that time god just was not on my Brain neither were u or for that fact no. One else So I open my heart in hope that it's the pain instead that'll melt but I'm wrong I only hurt more I try to speak up but soon the pain knocks harder on my hearts door so I wrote this down never thought once I'm finished it'll be spoken out loud. I reached my hand out to help but instead it's me I soon discover that was found 
But soon the agony starts all over again this time I'm in a pool full of pain and I can't even swim they say ur sins r forever before u then I must have alot of sin

I sit there left in my dark subconcus part of my mind contemplating my thoughts and fixing them all at the same time or rather my thoughts were fixing me this time and as I sit here in waiting a strange figure overcomes my subconcus mind it's 
The one that dwells deep in all our hearts and hides in our minds but mine had an added feature it spoke to me saying the time is now go and see I spoke back to it what is now u just can't be it told me my secrets both so foul and so true then when it was done it told me to watch out for u the good that's within me cause the good in me seriously out ways the bad but it seems like during all the rough spots all I see is the bad it's as if that's all I really had so I rolled with life's punches and I got had the more I fought this devil the more it brakes your heart and the more it seems like it's tearing u and I apart so now I speak these words and I reclaim my heart I start to grow my wings but can I truly be let back into your heart

Ill be sitting there in that dark room after this very day but see this time around that dark room shall be turned from pitch black to a light gray and this shall be before next may and dont worry i stand tall on all that i say because I will and I shall knock this devil of a thing out my way cause if I don't soon it'll all be hanging on the Line and when it comes down to the point of the pen I don't wanna be hanging from that or any other line . When it's all said and all done I wanna hear it from u both ways at the same time this way I can hear life and not death soon i speak values into these here rhymes which shall be known as my gracing lines 
And though I sit here and wait this time as I stop to read these lines they start to break me down from deep down inside . 
See I was in ur heart but then I guess the question is was u really in mine all the time .
U did for me but wat did u get back each time pain but u still did more I was in ur heart were u really in mine u gave me ur all I justgave u my best but after all this i write I ask myself was there really anything left I was in ur heart while u was lost in mine so I speak these words and since now I feel free I suck it all up and I fly to wat I can see

See I wanted to change I Really did that's y I started but once I started I didn't know tat my past would of gotten caught in it 
The erges grew more the things I wanted to change was soon the very things that knocked on my door 
Although my thoughts were wrong it turns out my actions r wronger and every time I write a line it seems I find that my feelings r much longer and no longer what they started out to be so I speak these words and since now I feel free I suck it all up and I fly free like I should be no care in the world at all..... I'm taking flight and in my mins I know that it will all be alright