Tears

They seem to fall gracefully at first, silent, warm rolling down my cheeks waiting to soak the creases of my neck. Emotions build, I become overwhelmed from all the overthinking. The tears brew faster, more rapid, heart beats increase. Eyes become puffy, a slight ache in my temples begin the battle of calm and the storm. My mind can’t decide what’s best.. sad, angry, disappointed. It becomes hard to breathe, hard to see. What is this ?! Why does this happen to me and why can’t I control it ? Sadness. It takes over randomly and consumes all the smiles and laughs. It takes always all the positive thoughts and fills them with bad memories that haunt me and I feel weak. I don’t know how to stop it or change it. Who is there? Nobody just me like always... struggling to understand or comprehend why I’m like this. Left to sort it all out by myself.