Tears of Joy

The pain cuts deep but i know where i have to be this is what i wanted? yeah...right But that doesnt matter anymore its to late im addicted I try to stop but my body wants more it hurts....it..HURTS but i keep striving just one more..i say...one more but it leads to another After i finish what? i finally stopped i shed tears But i am not sad see the tears i shed they are tears of joy i dont cry to give up i cry to keep going Because happiness doesnt come easy to some for me i have to strive to get to where i want to become To shed tears of joy not to give up but to become Free!